My ideal man

I've always been a very 'curious' girl. I've been with many men and had many boyfriends, it's not something that I'm proud about but it's a fact; and I might not be proud about it but I don't regret it (well, I do regret a couple of the worst) because I've learned so many things about what I don't want in a person. Anyways, it's common to be asked what your perfect mate looks like or is like throughout your life and I've obviously been asked this question many many times; I had never been able to answer  this question, i really could never picture a perfect mate since I had been with all kinds of men and none of them had been like very special for me in a way, maybe they were special but there was nothing in particular that made me fall for them; so whenever i was asked this question I only answered something like "I don't know, I have no stereotype, I've liked really different guys" and went on thinking it'd be impossible for me to ever have a stereotype. After many guys I finally tried to settle down with this extremely beautiful swiss guy, our relationship was beautiul, it started as the most perfect and beautiful relationship ever, I bet many people envied us in those times, we would be so cute and we would do many sort of fun things together in the cutest way and yet the passing that existed between us was very evident and the hughest u can imagine, we couldnt be away from each other and kissing each other, at the end, after almost two years, it was not soo good anymore, we would fight a lot and our lifestyles were not very healthy so we came to breaking up, it was the weirdest thing because I was so sure about spending the rest of my days next to him and i was never completely sure about leaving him, but he went back to Switzerland thanks to my dumb advice and now he's miles away. He left and my world turned into only darkness and tears, everywhere I went reminded me of him and of how we were not together anymore, distance is a bitch, let me tell you... Anyways, I tried to keep going because the suffering was terrible. I tried to date some guys and damn, they were like some of the best I've dated but there was something that didnt let me open myself, that didnt make me feel all that stuff you are supposed to feel when u are dating someone and so, there was something wrong with me, i've always been so flirty and good with man, and right now i couldnt flirt, I couldnt go to the next step, even if they were fun, cute, smart, there was something missing and just today I come to realize that I do have a stereotype, I do have an ideal man and no matter what the future brings, the bar was set up too high, I came to find myself in an amazingly unbelievable comfort-hapiness state that i had never felt and im sure i will never feel again, I was myself and he was himself and that made us the happiest couple ever. Here is the description of my ideal man: He is tall and thin, he has light skin, not as light as mine but yes pretty light, his hair is light brown and curly, he likes to have long hair most of the times but he looks incredibly cute even if his hair is short, his eyes have to be three colors, blue, green and yellow and he's got to have a beautiful shinny look, he has big eyebrows and eyelashes, a big but cute nose, he also has a big chin divided by a sutile line, he's got to have freckles all over his body and a few remarkable ones on his face, his lips are not big nor are they small but they fit mine perfectly and they have a beautiful pink, he's got to have big (not super big) teeth in their right place, his body is not all muscles, he's rather really thin but yet strong enough to controll me in bed, he's got big feet and long fingers, he's got to have a problem pronouncing the letter "s" and he definitely has to be a perfect English and Spanish speaker and he also needs to speak German or more languages than I do, he's gotta be a geek and love all those things like StarWars, Walking Dead, Aliens, Comics, Science and so. He needs to smoke weed with me ocasionally and have sex frequently without limits, he has to share all the kinky fantasies I have with me and fuck me as if there were no tomorrow. He has to be a really good person that I know will never hurt me, he's gotta write me nice cute letters with hearts and happy faces and know me enought to give me a guitar hero game on my birthday, he needs to want to spend his time with me just as much as I want spending mine with him,  he needs to have a red volskwagen and he'd be even more perfect if he didn't know how to park correctly, he's gotta love cats and preferently have a black one that he loves more than many other human beings, he needs to be antisocial and my best friend, he needs to be jaleous from other men, he's gotta like pizza and makis and pasta because that'd be the only thing we'd be eating on weekends, he's gotta have some particular fears like fear of  touching his eyes or fear of the  veins on his body, his sweat has to smell so particularly that I'd love smelling him even when he hasnt taken a shower. That's only like 25% of what my ideal man looks like, but now I'm sure that if I don't find anyone else that has ALL those specific characteristics, I'll never feel happy and fullfilled ever again so, good luck guys! If I never get together with my swiss buy again, my heart will never be anyone else's again.